"God I Hope I Get IT!!!"

So an eye opener today as I talked with Kurt. Two people have been eliminated and were not even half way through! Kurt talked a lot about taking the initiative and being accountable for myself. He was talking about the fact that this great big network of friends and personal supporters aren't going to be in New York with me. so its time to start making things happen for myself, which sometimes I have a problem believing that I can do. but I've already started! in this challenge i have already grown so much! I can notice it in my voice, in my performance and in my own self confidence. It's odd but I really am coming into my own. I'm not all gloom and doom like i usually am. I went to the doctors on monday and when the nurse weighed me...well the result wasn't good, but usually seeing that type of thing sends me over the edge, but i didn't! I really am starting to see my own potential and looking at myself with more pride. It's certainly a good step forward!